Feeling helpless

I feel helpless and alone and it’s awful my mum wants to do things she wants to get up out of bed and can’t,she wants to go on the commode but has to use a pad and it’s just breaking my heart seeing her like this , she now has two syringe drivers one with hiosine and one with Oxycodone and madazolam , she can’t even hold an ice lolly it’s so awful I feel like screaming :-( xx 

  • Oh Lee...

    You have a good scream ..l wish there was an easier way through I could suggest... but sadly it's taking one problem at a time, one day at a time ..

    But you are doing so much yourself , and you know if only we were super human .. but wer not .. we just carry on, because there's no choice .. but wer here and you can vent as much as you like ... 

    One day you'll look back and realise just how amazing you are .. many couldn't do what you are doing .. life and cancer sucks sometimes ... take care of you too ... if only you could get a little brake ... though I think I remember you saying your going to do it yourself ... but if you do get a chance take it .. even if it's sitting in a park, or having a coffee ... thinking of you ...

    Chrissie x

  • Hey Chrissie , thank you for your message mum died on Monday myself and sister and partner were with her she was staring right at me when she died x 

  • Hi there Lee. .

    She's at piece now .. and bet she was trying to say thanks and I'm proud of you ...

    My heart goes out to you all ... you did good ... now you look after your heart .. know you did so much .. try to remember her befor cancer .. she had years of being her... cancer was a small part of her life ..

    Sending you a big hug .. thank you for letting me know ... Chrissie