Hi, 

im Alex and I’m 27 years old with an 11 month old son and 7 months pregnant again. My mum was diagnosed with terminal cancer January 2017 and told she had 8 weeks to live. My world crumbled and my head detonated. 

My dads an alcoholic and been in and out of my life as he wants, my mum is the only person I really ever had and now I’m losing her. She was diagnosed December 20th 2017, I found out I was expecting after 5 years of trying 16th January 2018and my mum carried on throughout my pregnancy supporting and encouraging me and in October she held my hand as I gave birth to her grandson. I quickly fell pregnant again and have become what feels like her full time carer. I’m petrified she won’t make it to my due date and I’m petrified I can’t give her all the support and attention she deserves while she’s suffering even though I’m burning out trying my best to do right by everyone. 

I have a brother and sister sister who have wiped their hands of her so I literally feel on my own struggling with all the emotions under the sun as well just about hitting my physical limits running round after my son and looking after her too. 

My mum is my world and I don’t feel like I can do this at all. I don’t know how people cope everyday. I wake up and it hits me and I go to sleep panicking and worrying and planning, begrudgingly, how I’ll keep my head in the future when my thoughts become reality. I know we all face this but it’s too soon and the wrong timing and my poor mum shouldn’t have to face this at all. 

Wondering if anyone has any advice how to comfort and give proper support to their loved ones facing the same? Please, I have to know I’m doing all I can before the time comes, thank you in advance and sorry for the essay.