Hi, nothing can prepare us for seeing a parent deteriate, I lost my mum 4 weeks ago to a brain tumour. It's so hard, nothing can make the journey easier. Take each hour/day as it comes and cherish the time. I used to watch my mum sleep and as she went downhill and found comfort just being with her as I knew time was running out. I too remained upbeat when I was with her but sobbed behind closed doors . I would have done anything not to lose her and want to be with her too  But now she's gone I know how painful it truly is to lose a parent and I  need to be here for my children as I am their mum.

Please be kind to yourself and just go with how you are feeling, so many of us know your pain. Xx