Hello again. Big hug to you, yes it is an awful situation but you are so much stronger than you think. You mentioned your struggles with anxiety when you joined this forum and didn't think you would be able to cope but here you are, having got through the last few months. I know only too well what it feels like when faced with a prognosis of a few months. It is the worst feeling ever.

My husband wanted to spend his last days at home and all I remember is thinking that I would never be able to cope with it all. It is a hard journey knowing that whatever we do the inevitable is going to happen but we do get the strength to get through.

It is not very nice to watch your loved one just getting weaker and weaker but we just deal with everything as and when it happens. 

Please don't think that you are a whinge, you are a strong and brave lady trying to come to terms with a horrible situation.

Sending you both warm wishes and caring thoughts.

Lynne.xx

Thank you Lynne

Good to know there is always someone here to listen and give understanding and advice. Tomorrow is another day and I'll pick myself up and carry on