I’m really struggling :( I don’t understand why I’m not more emotional. My dad is dying of lung and brain cancer!!
My mum hasn’t left his side and my sister and I are doing shifts! I’m doing nights and she is doing days. I used to work as a carer so I get it! But sooo much diff when it’s ur family. I’m not sure if I just have my carers head on trying to detactch and not my relatives head! I’m worried I’m gonna crash in grief after he has gone. He’s giving up eating and drinking now so only a matter of time :( he’s just too weak!! To even speak! He does this thing when he crumples his nose to say hello. And checks often that we are are there. He’s very agitated think fed up.
He smoked all all his life and even though I quit I’m back on them too. As a coping thing :”( x messed up I know!!
Anyone feel the same?
