Been reading helpful posts on here for a few months now, and finally I'm reaching out. My dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer in October 2017, which quickly became aggressive and terminal. I attended his oncologist appointment today and we had the news we'd been dreading, the chemo hasn't helped and it's time to stop. When dad asked what the next steps are, he was simply told surround yourself with love. I feel like up until today I've been in a state of denile, especially as I'm getting married next year and held on to the hope he'd be there to walk me down the aisle. I've come home and completely fallen apart, coming to terms that my dad is going. I'm struggling the most with being around my parents. I want to spend as much time with them as possible, but at the same time I find myself making excuses not to, because seeing my young, fit, healthy dad becoming a frail man so so hard. I'm then filled with guilt. I feel so lost right now and hate feeling like I'm grieving for my dad who hasn't left us yet.