Hi, I’m new to this but after feeling so strong and confident to suppor my fiancé through his horrid journey of cancer. Seeing all the highs and lows, 3 months ago he got the all clear. My brain stopped thinking all about cancer the latest super food that has cancer fighting powers and what might stop the constant nausea feeling, whilst alway worrying was he ok. We started to plan, and look forward we found out a fertility treatment he went through was successful and we were for the first time since met (nearly 5yrs ago now) planning a family, imagining and believing it. Between the wedding planning, our crazy jobs we had a plan and it didn’t involve cancer.

This morning we found out his skin cancer is back, small but back....... 

And I don’t know how to pick him up this time, he is crushed - we both are - yet he feels he has let me down, and is just constantly apologising. The consultant is optermistic, with him starting some chemo tablets to try and stop the growth and hopefully clear it up. 

Sorry I feel I am just wittering on but I’m stuck I don’t know how to make him see that I am ok with the news and that I am not going anywhere, but I’m selfishly not looking forward to the hard days that are coming. 

C