This is my first time posting here and I’m not entirely sure how it works...
Basically my dad was diagnosed with stomach cancer just after christmas 2017. He went through chemo and it didnt work. What is more it spread to his pancreas. He has had radio but we dont think it has worked.
I am 19 and i dont know where to go or what to say. Im told i should ask him all the things i want to know about his life but i dont know how. All my friends and family ask how he is doing even if he is in the room and people seem to treat it as if he has already died.
I dont know what to do or what to say anymore. I feel this overwhelming guilt like i should be asking questions about him while i can but i dont know how and feel like i am wasting the potentially little time left.
My only grandfather died with (though ultimately not from) cancer back in 2012 and i also lost my only grandmother in 2015. I feel like losing family members is becoming normal in a way. I begin to expect it.
Can someone please suggest how to go about getting rid of this guilt and what to do next?