This isn't easy....

My boyfriend's mother has cancer and I have been there to support him as much as possible, even when he says he doesn't want me to support him. My dad died of cancer so I understand deeply how he is feeling. My aunty, my fathers sister also died of cancer recently and he wasn't there for me at all. He just said oh a family member of his died and that's it. A friend of mine said because my aunty wasn't my mother the feeling is different. I was really close with her, should this even matter if she isn't my mother? Also I have been suffering really badly with depression and my partner is just in his own world, to the point I feel really neglected. I've tried my best to be there for him but he doesn't want me to because he feels that I cannot do anything. And he is never there for me. Am I being selfish wanting him to be there for me during the time his mother has cancer? I'm really torn and confused. When I confronted him about how I felt, he said I was making him angry and that he didn't have the time to be there for anyone.

  • Hello HiddenSheels; this is a difficult situation for you.  These are only my thoughts so may not be right for you.  I think I would keep confrontation out of your discussions at this time.  I feel - and I may be wrong - that your boyfriend is not comfortable discussing feelings.  I know this is hard especially as you are suffering from depression but I am guessing that he is going to be too wound up with his mum's situation to give you much of the loving care you need and crave.  Of course you may be feeling that you do not want this kind of one-sided relationship but if you tell him that you want to do whatever you can to help him through his mum's illness you have at least tried to do what you can to help.  At the same time you can perhaps get some help with your depression - have you talked to your GP about this?

    From the time I have spent on this forum I have often read posts from women who have found that when their partner has a seriously ill family member they start to shut their partner out.  It is slightly different in your case as you say he has never been there for you.

    I am attaching a link to another poster whose boyfriend has become detached from her following a fcancer diagnosis in his family;     Best wishes.  Annie

    www.cancerresearchuk.org/.../partners-parent-terminal