Hi all, 

I have come here in search of some answers. I have spent hours reading every page on the internet to find out what is happening to my grandmother. 

I will give a brief background story, she had a fall new years day and subsequently started getting pain in her tummy and other symptoms of bowel cancer. We spent months going back and forth to hospital to find out what was going on. She was operated on in the middle of April as they found a large mass on CT scan. The operation was to remove said mass and create a stoma (if thats how you say it, not sure sorry!) She had the op and did well with recovery to start with, but we were informed that they couldn't remove the mass and that it was terminal. Her wish was to be at home, so we organised this and she came home around the beginning of May. 

Last week she had a hemeroage and was rushed to hospital. They stopped the bleeding and sent her home within 24 hours. So she arrived home on the thursday night and we had a lovely long chat on the phone that evening and she was very upbeat and happy to be home. Friday morning like usual i went round after the school run. I walked in and she was asleep and grandad told me she had a bad night. Now i am writing this 9 days later and since then she has been asleep around 90% of the time. She has not eaten for around 7 days and not drunk either. we are providing mouth care as her mouth is drying up as she is sleeping with her mouth open. since 3 days ago she has not woken up at all, not even opened her eyes or made any noise. she has no urine output for over 24 hours now. she has also had no stoma output but that isnt my concern. she has a syringe driver in situ and has some morphine and midazolam going through. 

This is just heartbreaking to watch and for her sake and our sake i would love her to let go now, it is not fair on her at all. there is no quality of life. 

so really my reason for writing this is to find out other people experinces and what happens, im 23 (well 24 tomorrow!) and have never been in this situation and i am rather scared!!!

thank you so much for reading.