My partner after two strokes and a heart attack has been diagnosed with secondary cancer in their spine. The change in them over just two months has been dramatic to say the least. We have no other family, it is just me, my partner and our kids. Part of me feels so scared, I am trying to cope, but feel so alone. Sometimes I feel guilty because there are times when I wish death would come quick and spare my partner from suffering, other times I cannot imagine being without the love of my life. I have not been able to work at all since this diagnosis, my partner has not worked either. Is it normal to have such a wide range of emotions are am I being nasty and selfish? And if it is normal will they stop or go away?
