i have been searching for answers for the last few weeks. I am not sure where all this is going but life is bonkers. Currently sat in a London hotel drinking wine whilst my husband faces a night without me. Not even sure what I want from this site - probably just somewhere to ‘chat’. I don’t want to give details but I have taken heart and spirit from the posts on this site. There is a complete whirlwind of emotion as you watch the person you wait a lifetime to meet, and when you meet them eventually time seems to standstill’ as they face this personal dilemma. I know some will criticise me for being vague but what the hell - life with cancer is vague. I face the prospect of losing my husband of 4 years. Two years ago I lost my dad to cancer - had a good life, lived the way he wanted. I can accept that. My brother committed sucicide before he died - dealing with that. The person who was and has been a constant for me during these times is the one that’s is now lying in a room, medicated and facing uncertainty. All I know is that it is bonkers. Is this what they by ‘calm before the storm’?
