There are so many emotions that I have building up in side of me. I never knew how many tears I could cry for one person who is my universe and thats my mum. The thought of adjusting and carrying on with my life after my mum has gone dosnt seem possible it dosnt seem I can carry on. Waking up with anxiety and feeling looming doom which lays heavy on my shoulders. I wish so hard that my sister and I have longer with our mum as mum has so much to look forward to. My sister is due in 10wks time and my son goes to school. The fact of facing adjusting scears me so much that planning a funeral already for my mum is just a reminder of what is to come, and that's the thing I have no idea of what's going to happen and when. My mum is a brave worrier who fought for so long on this battle. But its comming to an end. But I I don't want it too be the end selfish I know but why can't I wish this for mum to be here little longer not 3mnths.
