Not sure where to begin, we have all lost loved ones to cancer, yet each time it seems like the first time, type of cancer, type of patient, emotions, surroundings, time of year, each time is a new time, a new experience. Yet it is as raw as the first time and throws so many questions. What happens when....., or how do we ask about what happens if you are not able to tell us what you want? Have been through loss through cancer before but didn't feel able to ask such questions, but now am faced with this again, not once but twice One either side of family and do t feel as I can't mention either for fear of upsetting someone. Have children and it is very hard to explain that things to them.