Hi there ... your probably still in shock ... think everyone who loves that person goes through the shock, and disbelief. . I've never felt unwell ... it's the crule thing cancer does, it just creeps up on us when wer not looking ... 

My son was like you and in the early days was calling and texting all the time ... till his Mrs sat us down and said , no more panicking. . No more what ifs ... we will deal with it when things come up, and well do it together ... that put everything in perspective. . So we started living in the day ... it is what it is ... and when he was calm so was I... so when it all sinks in, take a deep breath and say l can do this ... and then you'll have the strength to walk this path, holding your mum's hand ....

Don't be afraid to both admit your scared sometimes ... share hugs, and listen to each others fears ... share tears too ... and if you can do that, you just may be able to share smiles and even the odd laugh .. it sure is getting me through ... it's not an easy path, but one that will give you both an invisible bond ...

You don't know just how brave you can be till your backs against the wall ...  cancer wants you to feel lost and wants you to give in and just wait ... well we won't give in.. and we won't wait ... well get our boxing gloves on, and take it on ... it's not about winning the fight , it's about kicking cancers *** right down the road ... and with you by her side , my son by mine ...we 'll  show it what wer made of ... big hug Chrissie

Hi Suebam, I sure do understand how you are feeling at this time. My husband has stage 4 sarcoma and we have our first appointment with new oncologist in 2 days. My anxiety is high this morning. News is not good, oddly for someone with stage 4 with one of the many enlarged tumors there is one larger than his heart located between his heart and lung with many others around his lung and the lining and it spread to another organ. Yet he seems to he in no pain. He has difficulty taking a breath when he walks some assuming it is due having COPD.       Hearing you voice your fear helps me know what I am feeling is normal.  I fight the fear daily. Keeping myself busy. My husband is so depressed and I know he is scared but he won't talk about it. So all I can do is give a hug.  So let's try to find the strength to endure and be helpful and hopeful for our loved one. Hope I find you here again. I have no idea how to keep in touch here as yet.   Hope you and your mum have a great week.