Hi I just need to try make sense of everything going on in my life at the moment and feel so alone in 2012 my mum was diagnosed with melanoma she fought a good battle and passed away in Dec 2017. In 2015 my sister was diagnosed with a paratoid cancer she had surgery to remove the tumour and second surgery to remove extra lymph nodes.she then proceeded to have 30 days of radiotherapy and chemo was tough however in nov 2016 she started to have a bad cough we were back and forward to the  doctor in jan 2017 she was diagnosed with secondaries in her lungs and in her hip again more chemo and radiotherapy we have plodded quite well however in the last 2 weeks she has become more breathless this has now resulted with her being in hospital due to lung consolidation that we are hoping that is infection but I am so scared of loosing her so soon after my mum the Macmillan nurses came to see her on the ward today and said we would no by the weekend if the antibiotics are working I am so scared that this is going to be the end am not sleeping and am so scared she’s going to die life seems so cruel loosing them both so close I’m praying for a miracle 

I am sorry if I waffled but I am sat at home and feel so alone xx thanks for listening