hey, this is my first time on this forum, my mu has had cancer for over a year now, and i don't really have anyone to talk to. so i think this is my best option. so last november, my dad came home and told me and my brother our mum had cancer. i felt like my world was ending, it was the worst thing that could possibly happen, my brother said it was karma. nothing bad had ever happened to our family, so this was life coming back and hitting us hard i guess.
during the summer, my mum's marker level was down to about 10 points, so that was great news, we thought everything was going to be okay, but recently, she has just been getting worse. the doctors won't operate because she has had too many surgeries, and they stopped chemo because that wasn't doing anything. in the last week, her appetite has been going down, she doesn't speak or smile much. and she needs help walking.
im so scared, my dad, i think, has already lost faith. he keeps saying that she is deteriorating, that she's just getting worse. i really don't know what to do.
i feel like i am the only person who is going through this. and already, this forum has started making me feel a tiny bit better as i sit here and write down what has been kept bottled up for months.