Hi there ... welcome to our chat room ... your probably in the early stages of shock ... it takes a time to get used to it ... and we all go through so many different feelings ... and on top of that, it took an age to get diagnosis... you didn't say what type of cancer she has ... maybe idea to get in touch with her Dr or oncology team and explain she's still in pain ... they may have more info you need or prescribe a different pain relief for her ... don't worry about the tears, it's good not to hold them in ... I've been on both sides of cancer, and for me it's far harder watching someone else going through it ...

There's lots of treatments now, and with you beside her, it will help keep her going ... yes it is a hard road to walk ... lots of ups and downs ... but once the shock lessons, it's bearable ... take things one day at a time and deal with problems as they arise and try not to look to far ahead ... live in the day ... that's what l do ... if you keep thinking "what ifs" it will be overwhelming ... cancer wants to brake us ... don't let it .. 

You can do this ... you don't know how brave you can be, till your backs against the wall...  sending you a virtual hug ... Chrissie x