Hi there ... so so sorry your going through such a hard time... cancer never gives up, it's so cruel and heartless ... you not on your own, there's so many going through this at the moment ... it's even harder coz this time of year, when everyone is looking forward to Xmas,  this just makes us want to scream as we just want that loved one to be o.k ... 

It helped me to put my house in order too, I've done everything from letters to funeral... it helped me as now I can sit back knowing I've done all I can do, so now I can live for the day ... I try to make every day count, weather it's long or short ... I will not let that cancer change anything it doesn't have too ... if you can make every day count, your sticking two fingers up to cancer ... coz it wants us to cave in and feel lost, I won't let it ... 

If you can walk this last journey, holding his hand, and every day try really listen to each other ... and then you can admit you both feel scared sometimes ... but don't loose the chance to hold on tight and cry, hug, and all the I love yous  you can fit in ... but please understand, all those different feelings, your feeling are perfectly normal ... it's all part of loving someone so very much ... sending you a big virtual hug ... chrisie xx