My wife (Sarah) is 43 and has stage 4 metastatic secondary breast cancer. It went secondary a year ago as had reappeared in her neck and chest. It is both in breast tissue and in the lymph nodes behind her chest plate.

We have been living this nightmare for three years now and the cancer has reocurred on three occasions. after her original breast cancer treatment (lumpectomy, radio and chemo) we had a few months thinking g life would get back to normal.  But not only is her cancer really aggressive but it has also gone from triple negative to her2 and now they believe she could have both.

she is now on a new chemo regime which wipes her out totally for a week to ten days.  She is on morphine and we are trying cannabis oil as well as she is in constant pain.  

The oncologist fear her cancer is immune to all types of chemotherapy and because she has had so much radio and her cancer cannot be operated on we are really worried.

Sarah was a professional dancer and has always been healthy and fit and around 8 stone.  She is now below seven stone and due to radio therapy and removal of lymph nodes in her armpit has limited range of movement.  I have to help her dress at times.

we have two teenage kids (14&19) and I am so worried about the future.  My heart is breaking g seeing Sarah suffer and she is in a bad place mentally thinking about the kids and not seeing them grow up, get married and have their own children etc...

We have been told to manage our expectations but haven't been given any timelines. The only saving grace as of the last scan is Sarahs organs are clear.

i just don't know what to do to help my beautiful wife and feel so helpless. I am supposed to look after her but can't do anything.

we are going to The Marsden today in the hope that she may get on a clinical trial. We are desperate.  I don't want to my soul mate to leave me alone and want her to get better so desperately.