Hi there ... You sound quite young and it hits you even harder when this happens as it must feel overwhelming and scary too ... Has your mum explained what is happening and maybe she's so worried about you too , thinks it may worry you more ..... 

I found talking and explaining things in a kind simple way helped them ... From my son , grandchildren and nieces .... I found they all needed a hug from me .... And now even my 5year old grand daughter knows nanny went in hospital cos she wanted doctors to make her feel better ... And now 9 weeks later she chat about Nanny's poorly boob ... But she giggles when she sees it on the side ... And she treats everything as nateral now ... 

My son who's 36 was also like you , in a bit of panic ... But we talked about feelings and had a big hug and a few tears , but we're facing this together ... I'm so glad I opened up and admitting it is gonna be scary at times but we're gonna make the most of every day ...weather is long or not so long ..

I have stage 3 but I found the waiting for everything was worse then, operation .... It's a waiting game all the way through ... But whatever your feeling (anger \ frustration \ helpless \ alone an needing to cry) is all normal and ...just remember there's always others on here will listen too ..

My heart goes out to you ... Big hug ... Chrisie xx