hi everyone , 

i don't know if you will ever replay to me. I m not from the uk  so I m sorry for my English. I haven't lost someone, not yet. My aunt has been diagnosed with cancer for the second time. The cancer came back this year and she has metastasis all over her body. She's in pain and she suffers and when I look at her I feel devastated. I know she will not make it but I hope and pray that God will have mercy. Sometimes I don't know what to do to make her feel special for the last moments with us. I don't have a lot of people to speak with. what scares me is the idea of losing her. I don't know if I will ever have the strength to move on. She's is like my second mom.