Carol, I can only say somehow you will get through and even maybe years later be able to recall  some happy moments.  My husbsnd had a brain tumour and was nursed at home for 5 months.   I cant even say now how I coped in fact on many occasions I didnt and relied on family and friends.  Please share your feelings with your family snd friends because they will be so glad to share in this awful time.

Hi my name is Jean I am also watching my husband live with liver cancer - I'm so so scared he's my life -  I feel I'm living a nightmare daily - doctors have thrown every tablet imaginable at me I'm sick of feeling like a useless zombie - I cry at the slightest thing - and you are right about the loneliness - at the end of the day everyone goes home to their lives- stay strong people say- so hard - I'm thinking of you - both of us along with many others struggling with the unimaginable- loving our man so much and so lost that it's hard to function daily - I'm thinking of you and wrapping you in a big hug.

Hi Carol, my Husband was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in January, he's 52, totally rocked our world. From that day everything changed and at times it can be feel very lonely and god forbid unless you are living a cancer journey no one will truly understand. One thing I've learned don't be afraid to ask for help, even if it's somthing so simple that makes your life a bit easier and good friends will want to help. I'm currently off work so we spend near enough 24/7 together, which can be tough and sometimes when he has chemo brain on it's hard work, it's important that you take some time out, even for an hour, you will of course talk about your Hubby but a change of environment helps and don't feel guilty about it. I recently went to London for the day with the girls and it did me the world of good I have a tearful moment at least once a day and wake reguarly through the night with the fear of losing the love of my life, but for now I'm going to try and make everyday a lovely one and let him know how much I love him.  For keeping postitive do something you love, exercise is perfect for that, even just 10 minute walk can help and talk to each other, the conversation may bring some tears but it's all part of coping with it together. Over and above all make some wonderful memories together xx

Hi Carol,

My name is julie, my husband passed away with liver cancer in march this year at the young age of 51! . Like you said, he was my world, my rock, my security my soulmate, its very hard & difficult to even think of any future even tomorrow but please, even if hes able, book a few days break, even to the closest caravan park!!!. It really wasnt our type of holiday but, he may have slept for most of it but he woke up beside me happy, we were under the a hospice in cardiff, they are just amazing as is mcmillian, we agreed that even if he was hurting or tired, every second counted, making memories, even the littlest of ones count, take that photograph, hold that hug for longer, feel their skin, kiss their lips & every possibility tell them how much you love them, when the time comes, lay with them, speak because the hearing is the last thing to go, they may not respond but a raising of the eyebrows but then they know their truely loved, at peace, we have to deal with life, its cruel & i still cry today for us but i know we made every second count, do it for your memories because they will hold the greatest love xxxxxxxxxx

Beautiful.