Hi all hope you are all doing well I am.new hear but don't know what else to do atm and just looking for something I'm not quite sure what if I'm honest 4 days ago I took my mother to the hospital after 3 failed gp  appointments then finally one sent us to the hospital the next day they called us in after a ct scan and said she has wide spread cancer in the lung and liver it was a massive shock to both of us she's been in pain for 3 months and the doctor have said that's she has allot of lesions and tumours there she's had a biopsy waiting for 10 days now which feels like a lifetime....i cannot cope at all I am so stressed and scared and just cannot be the strong one I feel like empty and numb the thought of loosing her is breaking my heart I've had 2 massive panic attacks she's 52 this shouldn't be happening I can't understand why  now I can't get my head around it I really can't