Hi Gadkins,

I am so sorry to hear that you are going through such a traumatic time. This must be especially hard for you with two young boys at home. I presume that they both understand what is happening?

It is exhausting travelling back and forth to hospital when this has all been going on for over a year. How long has your husband been in hospital for?

Nothing is fair about cancer, yet it is amazing where we find the energy to keep going. After so long, you are probably running on Adrenaline. Our bodies are like a battery which runs low, hence your exhaustion. Are you working on top of coping with all this?

If you get a chance try to take a nap throughout the day or early evening, as I’m sure that your night time sleep will be pretty disturbed by all sorts of thoughts. Not wanting to do anything can be a sign of depression. If you feel that this might be the case, have a word with your GP. He may be able to give you something to get you through this end stage.

For all the boys are young, they are fortunately both old enough to appreciate that if you are visiting your husband daily something has to give, but explain to them that you know how hard this is on all of you. There will be time enough to dedicate more time to them when this traumatic spell ends.

There is always someone here to talk to if you feel the need. Most people find this site very helpful and even find the act of writing down their feelings cathartic.

Do keep in touch.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx