Hi Kreshnik, 

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. The news when you just hear of if is completely decvastating. It does get easier to deal with it as times goes on, but it tends to come in waves. I just want you to know that what you're feeling is completely normal. I felt much the same way when my dad was diagnosed with Stage 4 Prostate cancer last year. Are you able to talk to anyone, like a counsellor or something? I have found that helpful for sorting out my feelings. 

I'm not sure if it is the same kind of cancer or not, but one of friend's sister's has breast cancer that spread to the bones and she is still here 2 1/2 years later. I know every case is different, but just try to remain positive. I know it's difficult but when we begin to be negative sometimes it can be difficult for our loved ones to see. Sometimes I will go for a walk to clear my head or even talking to other friends, or finding people who have been through similar experiences can help a little bit. I know there's nothing anyone can really say to make us feel better, but sometimes if we know that others have been through similar experiences it can make this process a little easier, or atleast we know we aren't so alone. 

I hope this has helped you in some way. There's a lot of supportive people on this site, hopefully you will find some people who can offer some support. sending my thoughts your way!