Oh bless your heart Make the most of now.  Take her places, have coffee mornings, reminisce about memories you share. Tell her everything you want her to know about your feelings , how proud you are to be her daughter. It's hard but stay upbeat around her and just live for the here and now. Sending love ️ xxx

Hi Suzy. Why is not wanting your mum to die selfish? That's not selfish it's normal. I'm in the same position. Mine got a stage 4 diagnosis out of the blue 3 months ago. I felt like id been hit by a truck. The pain took took my breath away. I was left a shaking wreck. Ive been through all 5 stages of grief already. Denial and anger being most evident. I'm fine until I'm not and the slightest thing sets me off into floods of tears. I'm in my 40's and I still need my mum. She can't die. Thats ridiculous. She's mum. I need her. My daughter's need her. My dad needs her. If I pray hard enough she'll be cured. If I touch that painting she did every time I pass it chemo will cure her.... Bargaining... Maybe when they operate they'll find its benign cysts .... Denial. Why didn't she go to the doctors when she first had that stomach problem.... Anger. Why me, why her,. I can't do this... I can't watch my mum in pain, lose her hair, her dignity ..... Depression.... I'll be fine... Everyone dies... I mean she's 70, she's had a good life... Acceptance...(this one lasts about 3 seconds and I go right back to the beginning) sorry... I hijacked your post but I'm just so incredibly sad today. So I know how you feel. Stay strong my love xx

I’m so sorry for the late reply it’s my first time today back on since my last post 

I’m sending you a big cuddle and lots of positive thoughts the pain that cancer causes brings us all to our knees not just the loved one suffering but the family surrounding them x