we have been coping with waiting for a while now but this time it feels worse

wife needs a further op for lymph nodes removing and a scan to check for further spread.

you just sometimes feel so scared that it's a case of sooner or later it's gonna get her.

with two young boys we are keeping strong for them but in quiet times We can become wrecks!!

i know all cases are different and we're not without hope but she just thinks she will be one of these tragedies you read about in take a break or something.

ill stop rambling now 

pete