How do I cope?

Last October  (2016) my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer, he has bowel cancer which has spread & he has spots on his lungs & also over his liver, he had a course of radiotherapy & then started chemo on 23rd of Dec, it's taking slot of getting used to my dad will be 70 this year & has always been healthy, active, didn't smoke or drink, then more devastating news hit as my mum who suffers from copd not really bad but bad enough for it to affect quality of life took poorly on Xmas day & got taken to hospital early boxing day, she got very sick very quick & passed away on Dec 30th, it was & has been hard for us all specially my dad who although has me & my sister still feels very lost, he had a ct scan a week ago to see if the chemo has done it's job & unfortunately it has done nothing & now he has more spots on his liver & his lungs & a larger shaded area & the cancer has spread to his adrenal gland, his spine & pelvic bone, he is going to start on other chemo but the thought of it not working & him getting worse I just can't bear & the thought of losing both parents within a year I just don't think I could cope, is there anyone with any advice or guidence please?

  • Same happened with my sister terminal bowel cancer spread to her liver nodes and other parts we're still trying to convince ourselves this is for real not just a bad dream 

    How to cope...... Dunno really i'm trying to find that answer myself but what I can tell u is to spend all the time u can with ur dad every second is precious

    If u need to talk i'm here

    Hugs Sandy xx

  • Thankyou Sandy.b

    I know what you mean about it all seeming like a really bad dream, I was like it myself when he was first diagnosed, kept thinking I was going to wake up & everything would be fine, I was just about coming to terms with the news when my mum passed away, & then with dealing with all that & now the news that my dad's cancer has spread it's like I'm back to the start again, luckily my dad only lives round the corner from me but worry about him so much on his own, it wasn't too bad before as he looked normal but now he has lost most of his hair ( always had such thick hair before) I hate seeing him without his hat on as it just makes it seem so real, my dad's side of the family isn't that big now as he lost his mum ( my nana) just over 2 years ago, he has one brother who isn't in the best of health himself, I have a sister too but she lives an hour away in another town, I have my husband & I have 4 young children between ages 4 to 10 & just mot sure how ill cope when he needs more caring for, I'm more than happy to care for him & as much as I try not to think of the time when this will come, I just can't help it, I'm 40 years old, my mum was 63 & my dad will be 70 this year, just feel it's too young to lose my parents & also for my parents to die, I try to see my dad as much as possible & do as much for him, difficult at times as he always been quite an independent man, in a way it's hard to spend time with him as it makes it all seem real if you get what I'm saying, this time last year I'd never of thought in my wildest dreams that this year would bring so much heart ache, just have to be strong for my dad & be there for him...