Hi , not sure what to say really .. had a shock whdn my brother was diognosed with cholangiocarcinoma 5 weeks ago and its terminal , hes only 10 years older ghan me.. just had his 52nd bithday.. finding it hard to deal with ... finding it hard seeing my Mum in pain and seeing him deteriorate slowly .. my emotions are all over the place.. i feel selfish for thinking about my own feelings..