Two weeks ago we were told Mum's cancer had returned and was now in her left lung and two places in her pelvis. She was first diagnosed with cancer in 2013, this is the 3 time it has come back. The onocologist was positve and told us we had caught it incredibly early and she is soon to start chemo. He told us her chances were about 60%. Mum has been so brave through the past 4 years, she has had it in her cervix, her bladder and her bowel, she has had to have radiotherapy, countless surgeries, some totally lifechanging and still after this, is ready to take on more treatment.

Even though the oncologist has been positive, I still can't help but think the worst. My best friends mum died in January and it is all very fresh. She will be scanned half way through treatment and if she has been responsive, they hope to have seen the dots of cancer gone. All i can think about is how terrified i am of hearing the results. What happens if the chemo doesn't work?

I am an only child so feel somewhat alone in all of this, although most of my family have been amazing. Mum is my entire world and i am so scared of what lies ahead.

I dont know how to cope.