I  have just recently found out my partner has cancer at a very advanced stage that has spread to his spine when just a few weeks ago we were oblivious and he too has lost mobility and in his case has suffered terrible pain due to the cancer in his spine. I know the prognosis for my partner is very poor so I absolutely understand how you feel; However regardless of whether we are told conventional medicine can help or not we will not give up, there is some very compelling evidence out there that some alternative treatment have worked where conventional medicines have failed and  you would not have to search too hard on the internet to read about these. I have a number of friends who are medical professionals who actually do feel the evidence is there that these treatments are effective. Some like using tumeric with black pepper have as I heard on radio 2 been formally researched with real evidence that they have positive impact. Some are perhaps more contraversal such as using cannabis oil because of what it is;, but the evidence I have seen in regard to this particular treatment is overwhelming and you will find a plethroa of case studies where this treatment was used on so called terminally ill patients who subsequenly confounded doctors by making full recoveries.  

I am not giving up on my partner and I would enciurage you not to either, remain open minded and don't lose hope as you do not know yet what the future will bring and whatever happens as I have recently discovered there are some wonderful people ot there who will wrap their arms around you and your husband and help you get through!

Thankyou for your kind words, I won't ever give up. 9 years of fighting along side my husband had taken its toll. I will stay strong as will he and keep fighting, sending many blessings to you and your husband. 

Like you, I'm facing the prospect of life without the love of my life and the prospect is overwhelming.

He tries hard to stay cheerful for me and our daughters but know that he is feeling unbearably sad at the prospect of leaving us all. He hasn't been out for six months and our new 'normal' revolves around his care. 

We try to live one day at a time, but it's very hard. I try to remind myself how lucky I am to have had him in my life for 40 years and that I can make sure that when the end comes for him he will be able to leave us with the love and dignity he deserves.

Days when the sun shines always feel better! 

I understand how you are feeling. Make sure you look after yourself and spend time with friends and in the garden, if you have one. Life goes on, even if it's not the life we would choose.