Im sorry to hear about your mum I really do know what is like being a carer , my 20-year-old son has testicular cancer 18 months ago so I know how hard it is for us, he had a massive operation in Dec 15 removing 50 lymph notes and two teratoma tumours from his abdomen and his right testicle removed , we didn't know how the op would pan out and so near Christmas, it was so stressful as you can imagine.. I'm pleased to say all went well and he is now in remission for the last 14 months., its going to be a life long worry to make sure everything is ok . All I can say is that family and friends were a life saver for me and just take each day hour as it comes. Try and enjoy the good times , the past is in the past the future hasn't come yet so enjoy the present.Will be thinking of you lots , and I really do know what is like being a carer xx much love xx