My dad has been battling with cancer for over 2 years, bowel, liver and lungs. He's had multiple operation which have been extremely hard to deal with, he cannot withstand chemo as it makes him too ill. While he's not terminal so I understand things could be worse, but Im struggling nonetheless. I constantly imagine a scary future while the rest of my family remain so positive, I'm consumed by and cannot escape the tears. I'm trying to manifest positivity but seem unable. He really is the best person I've ever met and I'm so lucky to known him for however long but the thought of loosing him shatters my whole world. I don't feel I can talk to anyone even though I know they're there, I just start to cry straight away. So I guess this me trying to talk about it.
A person struggling, 17
