Hi there,

This is the first time I've posted on a site, I guess I'm trying to cope with my shock and grief. My stepdad has been sick since Xmas eve and in and out of hospital with tummy and back pain. He's lost three stone and his appetite, our family have been fearing the worst and the doctors diagnosed him 2 days ago with pancreatic cancer. They said they hoped to operate and follow it with chemo but today after further CT scans we were told the devastating news that it has spread to his other organs, the liver, kidneys and stomach. This has come as such a huge blow, I've recently had a baby 3 months ago and he was here in December meeting his new grandson and now this. It's so hard not to let my baby see me crying, the pain Is in my chest. Him and my mum live 4 hours away so it's been tough on us all. We've been told he has about 2 months left and will be going home to begin palliative care. I don't know what to expect, I am scared of what I will see. He's such a happy, joking man and still his main concern is my mum and the family. I need to be a big girl and support my mum but I am terrified to see this cancer take him. It feels so unfair that he didn't even get a chance to fight it. I think it's s stage 4 if his prognosis is 2 months. He looks so poorly and grey and isn't eating much, this disease is so horrible and can take hold so quickly. I'm so sad he will not see me get married this year. It's a comfort to come here and share our story.