My lovely dad has been diagnosed with throat and lung cancer he has had a tracheostomy fitted told it would give him up to 18 months then they found the secondaries he can no longer swallow food and drink with out exasperating he is being "fed' through a rig he would never have had the tracheostomy if he could have foreseen any of this myself sister and mom do all his care constantly on the phone to chc for equipment I eat and drink when I remember constantly cry rant rave see cancer as such an injustice feel extremely bitter and no longer believe in anything I have 26 years experience in the care sector and palliative care which scares me more as I feel as I know what's coming friends distance themselves as they don't know what to say I feel as though I'm grieving for someone that's still very much alive HELP