hiya  Ferg03,

i know how you feel i felt the same when i lost family members. i had to be the strong one in the family for everyone and kept lashing out at everyone . so your not going through this alone.currently my brother has termial cancer.

i hope its postive news  for your nan

thinking of you and your nan

here if you want to chat .x

Hiya sambo1990,

thank you so much for your message. I appreciate your kind words and thoughts. I've had my tears today and I've made up with mum, she knows it's not like me and she knows I'm just not coping.

I think we need to remember that we can grieve/ have bad days too! Doesn't make us any less strong. 

Im so sorry to hear about your brother. I hope you are okay, and I hope your brother is as ok as he can be. 

Im also here if ever you need a chat no matter what time of day 

Thinking of you and your family 

x 

Thank you I've sent you a message hope that's okay x

Hi Ferg03,

Considering what you've been through and now what's happening, I think you are within your rights to feel scared and struggling to accept the news. When my Nanna was diagnosed in September, I really struggled to come to terms with the fact that she had Cancer. I thought she had become anaemic, not that she had Leukaemia! I felt so angry about it all and took my anger out on the people closest to me.

Nothing I can say can make the pain go away, but I hope that it can make it easier.
Know that your Grandad would be so proud of you; moving in and helping your Nan is such a courageous act of love and I'm sure your Nan was appreciative.

You've been there for her through the passing of your Grandad, and you can definitely find the strength to be there with your Nan now. I remember feeling absolutely terrified when my Nanna started chemo and each hospital visit got harder and harder as she got rapidly worse, but you will find the strength and courage and you will power through it.

You must stay positive and remember all the amazing memories that I'm sure you have with her.

Will be thinking of you all xx

Hi Laura,

I have to admit, your message made me cry. I never knew a stranger that doesn't know me at all could make me feel so much better. I was in a great mood after reading this and very positive. 

Im so sorry to hear about your nan, I hope that she is okay? 

I have always been a Nannas girl I used to spend every Friday with nan so over the years I have so many amazing memories that I will cherish, and I bet you have some lovely memories with your Nanna. 

She has now finished all scans and tests, and she has a nice break for a week or so before the results on the 31st. So just positivity until then, and much needed rest for us all! 

If I ever have any down days, I will be sure to read your message because it's made me feel better and also is lovely to know that there are such caring nice people out there. Thank you again. 

Xxx

Hi Ferg03,

I'm sorry that I haven't replied to you sooner!

Unfortunately my Nanna didn't manage to battle the Cancer. She put up a tremendous fight and I'm so proud of her for it. I have so many fantastic and loving memories of her that I can think of and look back at the photos. It's not the same, but it makes me smile (and cry!). One of the hardest things I've ever had to get over.

I'm so glad that you managed to find some positivity, I know how hard it can be, but as corny as it is 'there is light at the end of the tunnel'.

I hope your Nanna is well and that she is getting the treatment she needs?

xxx

Hi Hun,

Thank you for your kind words. It's been very difficult, I was so close to my Nanna and she is the first person in my life that I've known to pass away. It's her 70th birthday tomorrow so it's been a pretty emotional week, especially with Mother's day too. 

I had some of Nanna's tops made in a memory bear which is absolutely gorgeous, so sentimental.

Please don't feel awful for saying that, what fantastic news!! I hope she's on the road to recovery now?

xxx

Hi Laura,

I completelty understand how you are feeling, sending my love and thoughts are with you today. Make sure you celebrate her birthday still as I found that it helps. It will be 2 years on Monday since losing my Grandad, and I still celebrate his birthday and milestones and although they are hard, just remember she is still with you every day.

That is amazing! where did you get that done? If you dont mind me asking. I wanted to get Grandads shirt made in to a pillow but I havent found anyone to do it yet.

She is doing well from the operation, but she is really depressed. I had to rush home from work Tuesday as she was hysterical. I think with whats been going on the last few months and the time of year its just a bit overwhelming for her but trying to do what I can to be there and support her. Shes also scared of her follow up appointment as she will find out if she needs chemo next or what the next steps are for her. Hoping its just a bad few days and then she will go back to being the strong woman she is.

I hope you are okay today, sending my love and here if you need anything

xx