Feeling confused and helpless

My father lives with me and my family he was diagnosed with lung and liver cancer 3 yrs ago. He is now at the stage where no treatment helps so unfortunately he will not be offered any more treatment, I am his sole carer but he is still able bodied so not much care is required and in the last year he will not go out, he sits on the sofa all day watching TV only gets up to make his breakfast and lunch and when he needs the loo, now in the last 2 months when I am going on holiday he becomes very ill and has to go to A&E which I have been told it is anxiety on New Year's Eve he new I was going to a party and would not be home for the weekend and it happened again my new year was spent in A&E to be told there is nothing wrong with him, I don't understand why he is doing this am I being selfish?

  • Welcome to the forum Dranson although I'm sorry for the reason it brings you here.

    Have you spoken to your dad about this and asked why he thinks this keeps happening when you are planning to go away or out to social gatherings? It may not be intentional and may be caused by something else playing on his mind. Do try and talk to him about it if you can. Many members on the forum are or have been sole carers for their parents, siblings and partners and I'm sure they will post soon to offer their support and share their experiences with you.

    Do have a look around and use the 'search forum' option above to find other discussions where members are in a similar position to yourself as well. 

    Stay strong Dranson and remember that we are always here for you if you need us.

    Kind Regards, 

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Firstly, I would like to say that you should be so very proud of the fact that you are the one there for your father. Secondly, You have your own life. Cancer is a scary thing, you are living it along with your father. Emotions get the best of us sometimes, and people often forget about those that are "just" living with people suffering from it. Have you explained your feelings to your dad? Reassure your dad that you'll aways be there for him, but you to need your space and time. I have felt the frustration of total overwhelming reliance, and the need to break free. Keep strong Dranson. I pray your father gets better xxx