My freind has multiple tumours all over , his brain tumours have grown ... hes so weak he cant get out of bed to wash, 

(he has assistance) hes totally confused and is eating very little, last night he asked his wife for extra morphine as he had a bad headache,today hes managed a small ammount of food and just wants to be left alone to sleep.

He is due to have a hospital appointment on thursday but I fear that he will not be strong enough to go.

The family is totally split due to a rift over 10 years ago, and that part of the family have been asking to see him , but his wife has totally refused to let them anywhere near him. I tried to make the piece between them and was told in no uncertain terms to leave well alone , as im only a distant relation  and not immediate family... 

I want to jump on a plane and fly over to see him , but his wife has said he needs to rest and not have visitors at the moment

I fear the worst in the next few weeks or maybe even days... I get a couple of text messages a day and thats all 

I want to fly over as I live a fairly long way away, but Ive been told not at the moment, and I have to respect his wifes wishes.

its so hard , I had my kidney removed in May, so far all scans have been good, but who knows what the future holds, 

one never knows ...

Terry my friend and family came to stay in august, and he was swimming, biking walking, having a laugh an occasional beer 

he said I have to live life to the full , these are the happy days that will mean so much to me .. 

I saw hin 10 days ago. laid on the bed and just chatted , but he sometimes didnt answer , or what he said didnt make to much sence, I will treasure that 20 minutes , as I fear I will not see him again....

So hard 

alan