I'm back from the hospice.  It as nice,  but still it's what its there for and you can't forget that.  She tells me she can feel a change in her body,  she can feel herself getting weak.  Today I didn't get upset.  I kept it together. Like you Im surrounded by things she's bought me,  it hurts to look at.  I'm at work still at the minute.  I see her at night.  The rest of her family is there in the day. I teach.  I'll have to sort something out later so I can be there in the day also. . I'm shattered.  I don't dream.  I just sleep for 3hrs wake up then that's it I'm thinking and upset.  I wonder how others get through such heartach,  how can people survive such a loss.  Then I have an email from you and I have some hope that I'll be OK.  That she will be OK,  she's going somewhere special,  better.  X

You've had a crap day too.  It's hard watching someone cry, more so your mom who doesn't ever.  Let me know how she gets on tomorrow at the hospital.  How long she's got left no Dr in a hospital should say or can accurately give you. It's a meaningless question.  Let me know how she gets on.  Keep strong.  I'm here for you x

Hi Leanne hope you ok just had txt from my mother she having things fitted in the house and bath and she got pain relief . I haven stopped crying its so not fair I know more later my partner popping up the house when he finishes work see what they say to him . Thanks for asking sending you big hugs x 

Good that's she's having this go to help her in the house.  It'll help her be more active and get around. They will continue to help her with pain meds.  In the end Karen was takin cannabis oil and that helped her too.  Hard to hear her tell me that.  It's difficult.  No words.  I wish I was there in person for you.  I'm building my courage for tonight.  I'm going in my loft to get Xmas decorations to put in her room.  Be brave,  I know it's hard.  But we got to all you want to do is curl up and scream n sob till you feel your eyes are going to roll out your bloody head.  You be strong for her,  you can and you will.  You've got metal in you you don't even know is there.  Trust me you do.  Love to you x 

Its so hard it's so nice what you doing you are true friend . I also read about cannabis oil . I'm glad my mother haven things done as well and they give here pain relief because she has been in bit of pain when she moves . She still goes out it haven stopped here not yet . We have been though a lot since my mother was first diagnosed . It shock more than anything I don't know if you read my other post I send in they will explain more . take care thanks x 

So I sat today and said to myself let's pretend she's going to Australia.  She's leaving  for a year. . I actually made myself believe it.  It lasted all of 10minutes but it felt good.  She was going to Australia for a better life.  My heart acts like mad. I'm going to the Dr's next wk need something to help me sleep n I need to get signed off to av time with her. Found out last night hospital gave her 2weeks. She's had one already.  Wondered why she was counting down like this.  I'm just going now to Xmas bling her room.  X

Libbs Karen passed away yesterday at 8.05. I was with her when she passed.  It was peaceful.  Me and her husband sat with her.  What a privilege to say goodbye to her.  I'm still in shock I think it's been 13days since the Dr said there was nothing he could do and gave her a 2wk prognosis.. I'm lost.  I'm up and down.  My head is a mine field of emotions.  I can't think ahead. It hurts too much.  

Hi Leanne why don't you do new post that people on here know that you friend passed away . So you can get support and advice on how to deal with what you going through x x 

Oh im so so sorry to hear this. Your friend will have passed knowing you were by her side. My heart goes out to you xx

My Dad passed away on the 23rd, at home. So we're both going through alot of pain at the moment. 

Dad was diagnosed with lung cancer eight weeks ago. Can't believe he's gone. I'm looking after mum, she's heartbroken. They were together 60yrs.

​​​​Dads funeral is on Thurs. 

Love and hugs to you. Keep in touch xx xx