I don't even know where to start. Days seem like weeks and seconds go past without me even noticing. Almost 2 weeks ago my nan was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and terminal brain cancer. She has 3 brain tumours. Just yesterday the nurses told our family she has weeks to live but I know she won't make it that far and I don't know how to cope with it. We've told her what she has but we haven't told her it's terminal and it kills me every time she tells us she wants to visit somewhere or buy something because I don't know what to say but I know I have to just go along with it to keep her happy. She has terrible short term memory loss, she even forgets my name and I've been in her life for 18 years now, her speech is getting worse, she's constantly tired and sleeping. Every time she shuts her eyes I feel like she's going to slip into a coma or take her last breath. I think what hurts me a lot is I lost my grandad 3 years ago due to having a heart attack and that still feels as if it happened yesterday and it's still so raw. I've never gone through anything like this. I'm being strong for her, I want to cry, I want to laugh, I want to scream. I dread seeing her every day incase she's worse and that's exactly what's happening. I would just really appreciate some advice, I'm struggling.