Hi Mum1935

I am so sorry for your situation - somehow I dont know how we find the strength to keep going one day at a time. I lost my first daughter a short while before her fifth birthday and while not to cancer it was a long and exhausting five years, heartbreaking for us and for her. Just somehow we keep going.

Now twenty years on I am looking after my partner of 10 years who is in the final stages of lung cancer which has spread to his liver.too. I dont know what type of lung cancer I dont even care. I cant change it so what difference does it make. My job is to provide support to the man who has stood by me through thick and thin and helped my second daughter be the amazing adult she is today despite her real fathers best attempts. 

I feel I am going bonkers, we have been told her wont make Christmas so time is very short. We have 3 dogs, a horse and I am still working full time. My time to let go is walking the dogs first thing when I can shout and cry and genrally not keep a front up for everyone. I am exhausted and short tempered and like you just dont know how I am going to keep going. But we will. 

Take care and know you are not the only one. 

My overall feeling is anger at what is being taken from us.And surprise at how exhausted I feel just the emotion seems overwhelming