Hi, I am new to this site. This is my first post on here, here goes...

Before Christmas last year my husband was diagnosed with skin cancer. He was first diagnosed 17 years ago & had a mole removed and thought that was the end of things, until last year her noticed a lump in his groin. The cancer had spread 17 years ago to his lymph node and it had been hibernating until now. We have no idea why it suddenly decided to grow again. We stayed positive as his ct scan showed it hadn't spread. 

He had major operation in January to remove all lymph nodes from groin and stomach incase it had spread to any others. The results weren't great, nearly all lymph nodes removed were cancerous. 

After his op he just didn't seem to be improving, he was getting getting more sick by the day and was having terrible chest pain. We called an ambulance as we thought it could have been a blood clot in his lung caused from his operation, they did x Ray's and another ct scan. That's when we were told his melanoma had spread to his bones on his chest. He then had another full body ct scan as the other was just on his chest and the results showed his cancer had spread to many other organs & his spine. We were told he had 6-9 months left to live and it was incurable. 

We were totally devastated, we have a 1 year old little girl. I have never seen him cry before until now, he cried and cried for days. We both did. 

We were put in touch with an amazing oncologist who put him on some new treatment. He was the first in the country to be prescribed it. After 3 months he was back to his normal self, we were doing everything we wanted to do & for a little while forgot that he still had cancer. We knew he was still dying but not just yet. I think we just tried to forget about it and enjoy ourselves. 

Unfortunately he has stopped responding to his medication and is just getting worse again each day, he sleeps most of the time. His oncologist is keen to try him on some other medication to ease his symptoms. His latest ct scan was worse than ever. 

I just feel so bad for him and what he has to go through. I am incredibly proud of how he has coped with it all. 

He is my best friend & I just don't know how I will cope without him. I'm not a very strong person anyway and I really do not know how I will continue. He still continues to make me laugh every day. He's an inspiration x