Im 20 years old and I feel like my life is over , I have a beautiful home , fiancé , child and family and friends but one thing I just CANT deal with is the fact my dad won't be with me in maybe days weeks months or years ... The fact is I DONT KNOW!? how can I live my life not knowing when my dad is going to die but knowing the day is soon. Maybe if he got hit by a car I'd accept it more because it would be instant ... I don't know I think I need some me time I'm just terrified