Hello Cherie, 

I'm so sorry you find yourself on here and that your mother's been diagnosed with cancer. What an awful time for you all especially just before you are due to get married. It's supposed to be an exciting time of your life but you've now also got a lot of worry on your mind too. I can understand your frustration and anger towards the doctors unfortunately this is a lot more common that you probably realise. You aren't alone and coming on places like this is a massive help through such a difficult time. 

I've just turned 27. My dad was diagnosed April last year so 14 months ago to be precise with stage 4 incurable bowel cancer which has spread to his lungs and liver. We thought he may of had cancer but we all assumed if this was the case then he'd recover from it like many people do. Sadly that bit of hope was robbed from him when they explained he'd never be cured from it and all they can offer is some chemo which will help keep things at bay and allow extra time providing it works. Feb this year he suffered from a stroke which was down to the hospital (long story). But he's currently doing well and looks very well too. It's hard because there are days where I can easily forget how seriously ill he is then there are days where I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. It's an emotional roller coaster. To know I'm going to lose my Dad eventually hurts like hell all I can do is spend as much time as possible with him creating memories. I don't know if I've helped you but I just wanted you to know you aren't alone. X 

Hey Thankyou for your reply I'm so sorry to hear that it's such a horrible disease it is so nice to hear your not alone some days I find it so hard holding myself together at work and others I find it a help being a work I'm a hairdresser so spend a lot time talking to people which helps keep some normality in life taking about others peoples life's rather than my own, times like this I really wish we had a majic wand, X