Im an 18 year old girl whos just left school and really am struggling with coping with my dad. Basically my dad got diagnosed with hodgkins lymphoma last october and has had chemo ever since. This may sound bad but chemo has been a breeze - he hasnt seemed ill or sick in anyway, therefore when we were wwaiting for his scans results we obviously all got our hopes up we would have the all clear. Positives are that half the cancer is gone, however stil half to go. This results in more chemo and a stem cell transplant so dad is in hospital for 1-2 months in isolation. This means me cancelling my gils holida, possibly having to defer my university place for medicine for a year and basically not being able to be a noraml teenager without stressing or worying. I know how selfish all that sounds and at the end of the day my dads health is 1000000000x more important than that, but ive just left school was lookign forward to becoming my own wee adult and doing everything that normal teenagers look forward to, and i dont know how to deal with the fact that all of that and all my hard work has just been taking away from me. I feel so alone - i have no one in my situation to talk to and any help guides or anything although they try their best seem so childish and quite cringy for teenagers - im bascially at a complete loose end and have no idea what to do, where to turn to or who to talk to..... any help or advice would be greatly appreciated x
