Hello, i was inspired to write on here after reading the things other people are going through and the support and practical tips they've received. As well as the fact that journaling supposedly helps! So here it goes...

My stepfather has just been diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma which has now spread to their bones. They are undergoing chemo, which is rough for them but they are remaining incredibly positive (at least on the outside). My mum has gone into a depression with it but refuses to see doctors or councillors. My teenage sister again outwardly is positive and ok. I don't live with them but visit frequently. 

Before the cancer I had planned to move to Hong Kong with my boyfriend. He took a job out there and went to set things up for us  like a house, car etc. So when I told him about the cancer he was supportive but still went. He was so excited about the move and the job I couldn't ask him to stay. I miss him like crazy and I think that's made the other stuff a hell of a lot more intense! 

Currently my plan is to go for a month in Hong Kong then come back, see my family and then re evaluate. But I can't help but feel it's very selfish to abandon my little sister with a depressed mum and a dad in chemo...

Any thoughts?!