Cancer is really hard to cope with. Watching the person you love most in the world die. I'm 18 and my boyfriend of 3 years was diagnosed with a stage four brain tumour that has spread to his heart and lungs. Unfortunately it is definitely terminal. 

Daily life is so hard. With no treatment working exceptionally well he just gets worse and worse  his episodes and black outs are now a daily thing, bleeding from the eyes, nose, mouth and ears. Not only is this frightening for him but I have to clean him and reassure him. Scariest of all is when he completely forgets who I am and can't understand what I am saying. 

I try so hard to be understanding and patient but it hurts so bad. I hate watching him like this and we constantly argue because neither of us know how to deal with it. I love him so much and I just want him to be happy. How though, do I explain that all of this takes a mental toll on me as well, especially after losing two family members in the past two months to cancer?