Hi Sammiee,

It is natural to be scared for those you love, when i found out i had terminal cancer, the worth part was telling those who ment so much to me because i thought i was hurting them.

It is differrent for the ones who have cancer rather than the family and friends, and everyone copes diferently too. I found myself more confortable to talk about it than most of the people i talk to because they want to find something cheerful or hopefull to say, but for me it is what it is.

Can you speak to your gran about how you feel?

If she feels fine with it then follow her lead, at a certain ages you have lived throught all kinds of things and you learn to let thing slide. There are also cancer charities, local hospices that offer group or individual session to talk about your feeling. My partner and I have found it helpfull to speak to someone unrelated to us, to whom we say what we really felt without having to protect the others feelings.

You could aslo write your thoughts in a notebook just to get them out of your head.

Make sure you spend quality time with your gran, cancer is a dark place and sometime the smallest thing can make you really happy. Going for a coffee, a walk, doing craft together, just knowing somebody really cares will help.

Best wishe to you both

 Izax