Hi. My dad has been disabled for 12 years due to a stroke (severe bleed on the brain) he's been wheelchair and house bound since then but his health started deteriorating a few years ago and only recently (after pushing the doctors) have they found out that he has cancer. The doctor said my dad's too weak for treatment and can only have help with the pain. He was brain damaged from his stroke too and his mental health has been deteriorating. I am his main carer and am finding it spiritually/emotionally and physically draining. Most of the time I'm positive but recently I've been struggling as I looked after my mum too as a teenager (she passed of MS) it was very similar to how my dad's failing health is. I feel very angry at times, then sad, then angry again. I've spent many years caring for my parents and at times I feel bitter. Not with my poor dad just the situation. I miss how they were and seeing them suffer to the degree they have I feel has damaged and haunted me. I've come to this blog as none of my friends can relate with how I'm feeling and I don't want to talk to them about it as they don't understand. I'm also finding a lack of empathy difficult from other people. I've been reading comments on here and it's helped as I understand what others in a similar situation are going through. To all others out there struggling with this terrible disease I wish you healing and hope. Rebecca xxx